There’s this thing I used to hear when I first came to meetings, a thing that really used to piss me off: I’m so grateful to be an addict. Every time I heard that, I wanted to go over and punch whatever screwhead said it. Fuck you, I’d think. You’re grateful to be an addict? You’re […]
What is the attraction of other people’s stuff? I get it into my head, taking their inventory and reaching grand and mighty decisions about their character and life path. I seek it out in my professional life, saying yes to all their projects, and their timelines, leading me away from my stuff. I worry so […]
ere’s a moment I have found put myself into a lot recently: “Why am I doing this thing I’m doing? I really need to be doing something else. I’m wasting my time, getting distracted, spending money I don’t have, working on somebody else’s stuff instead of my own … basically because I said I would, […]
When what should be a simple interest becomes a nagging obsession, it’s time to investigate.
How “next week” is just a story made up to get me out of reality, out of my truth.
Working through the Steps, considering the Step 3 Prayer.
Starting (again) on the Step 3 Workbook
Folks are really digging my new book, Peaceful Places: Portland. It’s quite gratifying, as I had a hard time writing it and still didn’t really know what people would think of it. All in all, they seem to dig it. The media, in particular, have picked up on it a lot. First up, let’s share […]
Some ramblings from working Step 2: Look up these words then write what the words mean to you. Believe: “Accept something as true, somebody as truthful, have trust.” To me, this means setting aside denial, fear and shame to allow in a “new” reality: that change can happen, growth is possible, happiness is attainable, for me. Restore: “Give something […]
Apparently the Universe wants me to learn about patience today. I’m looking for an apartment — and must practice patience with the reason I am leaving the old place, which boils down to my greed. Long story. I’ll spare you. The process itself of looking for an apartment … well, nothing brings up opportunities for […]